English poem
Sensation
by John Gray (1839–1915)
I walk the alleys trampled through the wheat, Through whole blue summer eves, on velvet grass. Dreaming, I feel the dampness at my feet; The breezes bathe my naked head and pass.
I do not think a single thought, nor say A word; but in my soul the mists upcurl Of infinite love. I will go far away With nature, happily, as with a girl.
A UNE MADONE. IMITATED FROM THE FRENCH OF CHARLES BAUDELAIRE
Madone! my lady, I will build for thee A grotto altar of my misery. Deep will I scoop, where darkest lies my heart, Far from the world's cupidity apart,
A niche, with mercy stained, and streaked with gold, Where none thy statue's wonder may behold.
Then, for thy head, I will fashion a tiar, A filigree of verse, with many a star
Of crystal rhyme its heavy folds upon. And jealousy, O mortal! my Madone,
Shall cut for thee a gown, of dreadful guise, Which like a portcullis, shall veil thy thighs;
Rude, heavy curtain, faced with bitter fears, Broidered, in place of pearls, with all my tears.
And, of my worship, shoes will I design; Two satin shoes, to case thy feet divine,
Which, while their precious freight they softly hold, Shall guard the imprint in a faithful mould.
If I should fail to forge a silver moon, I with my art, for thee to tread upon,
Then will I place the writhing beast that hangs Upon my heart, and tears it with his fangs,
Where thou may'st crush his head, and smile supreme, O majesty! all potent to redeem.
And all my thoughts, like candles, shalt thou see before thine altar spread, Star of the Sea!
Starring thine azure roof with points of fire. With nought hut thee to cherish and admire,
So shall my soul in plaintive fumes arise Of incense ever to thy pitying eyes.
Last, that indeed a Mary thou may'st be, And that my love be mixed with cruelty--
O foul voluptuousness! when I have made Of every deadly sin a deadlier blade,
Torturer filled with pain will I draw near The target of thy breast, and, sick with fear,
Deliberately plant them all where throbs Thy bleeding heart, and stifling with its sobs.