Sonnet: Why Did I Laugh Tonight?

Why did I laugh to-night? No voice will tell No God, no Demon of severe response, Deigns to reply from Heaven or from Hell Then to my human heart I turn at once: Heart! Thou and I are here sad and alone; I say, why did I laugh? O mortal pain! O Darkness! Darkness! ever must I moan, To question Heaven and Hell and Heart in vain. Why did I laugh? I know this Being's lease, My fancy to its utmost blisses spreads; Yet would I on this very midnight cease, And all the world's gaudy ensigns see in shreds; Verse, Fame, and Beauty are intense indeed, But Death intenser, Death is Life's high meed.